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hi ya! because the practicum this semester has not begun so I have enough spare time. I wanna upgrade my swim skill at least I must reach the 200meters without stop, I wanna included to the basic dive group for the diving subject in this semester, my best friends all there, so i must really try my best.oh yeah, I accepted in students board in my department. for the final stage of the selection, our job is to be committee of the major discussion to determined the head. that event was success, seniors praised us for our hard work, and that's a relief... now, I'm in project (lol) acctually not really project, soon my best friend's birthday, so I wanna make something special for her and I think it would be good if the scene is in pool, ^.^ sweet greeting from charolyne. chuuu.

LOOSER

hi everyone! I wanna tell u guys, I'm really disappointed with my self. it's about UKSA, finally I give up on it in the 'pra LPT' stage, that's right they said they are worried if my ill come when we r in sea, and it is true that my ability is not enough to take to the sea, but that doesn't mean that I have to give up!! I hate this side of mine, this is show me that I'm such a big looser, I wanna as strong as them who can continue their struggle and in the end they can smile proudly with victory in their hand. I want to join them, but I don't have strong heart like them, I'm too spoiled and absolutely I was disappointed those who have believed in me and keep supporting me. I don't want to be hated by them, but I don't have any idea 'bout this. I was too easy to give up.  => sweet greeting from charolyne.

my hard and hapiness moment

hello, I'm charolyne. actually I wanna write here from three days ago but in that time until yesterday I can't even open my laptop 'cause that three days was so busy day. the LKK stage for open recruitment UKSA is so hard from the firs day. I think if I don't have the strong willingness I will give up in first day, but I wanted become UKSA's member so badly! there was so many people I admire so I won't give up. but in the second day that's the most pleasant days from the other days. in the second days I get so many happiness LOL, actually that's not really a big happiness, just when they wanted to test our compactness with tell us to watertrap in the 2 meters pool, in the first I can calm down but when I felt so tired I became panic and want to hold the side of the pool but E.E.S.(initial) hold me tight so I cant reach the side of the pool. they keep telling me to calm down and blah blah... but I still panic but when my senior R.N. (initial) she is the official member of UKSA too tell me to see her, breath normally and don't get panic I become a bit calm and do what she say (may be because I admire her a lot from 'ATLANTIK') moreover when I try to calm and reduce my tired with vampire jump I meet with my beloved M.D. (initial of the person who I like from the first I entered college) he keep talk to me and calmed me down and give me his hand and hold my hand, automatically I get more energy and want to try hard, show him my best. he praised me after that, he say "good, continue like that. see the sky" I'm really glad, I'm happy that I did not give up so I can see him and hold hand with him. my senior R.N. praised me too she say "nice 'charolyne' you can calm down. defend and hold" from that words I can endure to the end, and that was very happy. but in the next day I can't stand myself why I'm so weak. in the third day they test us with the same way, that is water trap but this time they choose 5 meters pool. with our eyes covered with our T-shirt. that time I'm verry spoiled. I try to calm down but I choose to give up and finally my senior R.N. say "are you ready owe me water trap 30 minutes before the LKK test later?" first I answer "I'll try" but she keep continues to convince me so I said "yes I ready" after that they tell us to jump from a height of 5 meters to the pool (for women) in this challenge I dare to jump from that height without doubt and shouted "UKSA victorious!" I'm glad I have dared to do and not be a looser for the second time.  the only challenge that I have not been able to solve is water trap 30 minutes and swim 200 meters. I do not want to disappoint my senior R.N. so I'll try hard to pass this challenge. pray for me please... so I can pass with either. Thanks. sweet greeting from charolyne. chuuu.

UKSA

hello everyone!! I wanna share with all of you. well I want join in diving club in my university. the name of that club is "UKSA" the people there was interesting and enjoyable, but the stages to be the official member was not easy. and tomorrow is the next stage, in three days we trained in the pool, the standard is we must can swim till 200 meters , water trap about 30 minutes, apnea eight line and hold the breath about 1 minutes. I'm scared I can't pass all of that, moreover the swim... but I'm serious want to join the club I just can try my best tomorrow. please pry for me, thanks.... sweet greetings from charolyne :)

my diary...

I'm charolyne, actually that's not my real name, but just call me by that. I'm in the first year of my live course. in the beginning I think being far away from family is so cool and enjoyable. but that's really not true! so many problem come and there's no space for me to take a little breath. may be for me ('cause I'm included to spoiled child) it's like I'm dying. the thing which I like turn out nightmare for me and the thing which I don't like it from beginning become more and more annoyed me. friends.. I still can't make a really true best friend, when they turn they head from me I feel like I wanna jump from this world and I don't wanna care about anything anymore..... but then I realize, I must raise and show them I'm not a little thing! even though I'm still in the bottom now.... but I'll raise with my own effort .... then just this little note for this time.... by C.W.L

my drEaM

aku sering bermimpi tentang seseorang yang dimana dalam mimpiku itu dia adalah soulmate aku, di mimpi pertama, itu adalah pertama kalinya aku ketemu sama dia, tempatnya dipantai, kami bertiga, dia, aku dan temanku.  kami masuk ke sebuah gua, sewaktu temanku asik melihat-lihat cangkang kerang yang ada di lantai-lantai gua, dia memegang tanganku dan tersenyum lembut padaku. mimpi kedua, tempatnya ada didalam pesawat,aku minta dia untuk meluk aku, terus dia meluk aku, rasanya seneng banget. mimpi ketiga, disana seolah-olah aku sama dia udah tinggal berdua, didalam kamar aku ada foto dia gede banget, dan kami kayak ngadain semacam acara pertunangan atau pernikahan, aku udah pakai gaun putih, tapi entah kenapa dia malah cuma pake t-shirt sama celana tanggung aku kesel banget, aku suruh kepala pelayan buat nyuruh dia ganti, aku kesel sama dia jadi aku naik keatas dan tidur dikamarku, dia nyusul aku keatas terus dia meluk aku dari belakang >.< waktu kami lagi ngeliat keluarga yang rame ngobrol sambil makan dari atas, dia ngerangkul pinggang aku dan bilang kalo dia akan ceraiin aku karena sesuatu, seseatu yang berhubungan sama pekarjaan dia, aku benar-benar sedih dan ngerasa sakit banget, waktu aku bangun rasa sakitnya masih terasa, sampai mau nangis rasanya. mimpi keempat, situasinya agak aneh, dia kayak lagi dikejar-kejar entah dengan siapa aku nggak tau, terus dia nyuruh aku lompat dari jendela aku nggak mau tapi dia nodongin pistol ke aku, aku denger dalam hatinya dia ngomong kalo aku emang sayang sama dia aku harus lompat, akhirnya dia dorong aku dan aku jatuh ke sungai, aku melihat ke jendela dan berharap dia akan turun juga, tapi dia nggak turun dan meninggalkan aku, dibelakangku ada seorang anak kecil yang menyurhku untuk ikut dengannya. mimpi kelima, kami berdua seperti sedang berada dirumah keluarga kami, dan kerluarga kami sedang berkumpul ramai, lalu kami masuk kekamar. dia duduk di kursi meja belajar dan aku dipangkuannya, yang aku ingat dari mimpi ini dia mengatakan namanya, namanya 'aram' kayak tokoh komik di 'merupuri' yah aku juga nggak tau kenapa bisa gitu, padahal aku nggak kepikiran komik itu sama sekali... sebenernya masih banyak mimpi tentang aram lagi, tapi, aku udah nggak terlalu ingat, yang jelas sejak mimpi kelima dia selalu ada disamping aku, tapi aku jadi bingung,sebenernya itu 'will come true' atau cuma ilusi aku aja... yah aku harap suatu hari nanti saat waktunya tiba seseorang yang seperti aku harapkan selama ini akan datang kehadapanku. ~salam manis dari charolyne~

sUpEr GirL

Aku selalu membayangkan tiba-tiba saja aku mendapatkan sebuah kekuatan ajaib, aku mempunyai sayap, bisa terbang dan memiliki kekuatan super. Lima anak yang terpilih dari negara yang berbeda memiliki kekuatan khusus yang bertugas untuk melindungi dunia dari makhluk-makhluk jahat seperti mutan dan monster lainnya. kami masing-masing memiliki baju zirah yang berbeda. Baju zirahku termasuk jenis baju yang manis, baju langsungan seatas lutut, berwarna putih, terdapat pita dan renda tapi nggak ribet. Lima anak yang terpilih tadi terdiri dari 3 laki-laki dan 2 perempuan. Aku berpacaran dengan salah satu laki-laki diantara mereka bertiga, namanya Rogen ... karakternya dingin sedingin es, tapi dia yang paling kuat (ehe) baju zirahnya juga keren, kayak malaikat, matanya tajam dan dia tinggi ... dia blesteran korea canada... (ehehehe) walaupun kikapnya cuek dan nggak peduli sama urusan oranglain, tapi dia perhatian sama aku... dia nggak pernah ngelepasin pandangannya dariku, dia pencemburu berat dan amat menyayangiku, dia nggak akan tahan berpisah lebih dari 1 hari denganku. Rogen akan segera datang kalau aku dalam kesulitan, hatiku seperti terhubung dengan alarm yang ada dihatinya, dia bisa mereasakan apa yang aku rasakan, dia juga amat memanjakanku (ukyaaaaa) dia nggak akan membiarkanku melawan monster sendirian, saat kami berlima bertarung melawan monster dia akan selalu melindungiku. Dia bak pangeran tanpa cela. Lalu suatu saat kami berlima mengadakan pesta diatas awan, setelah mengalahkan monster yang amat kuat, dan rogen tak pernah melepaskan tanganku, tanganku selalu digenggam erat olehnya (kyaaa...kyaaa). kami berlima sangat akrab... yah begitulah yang aku bayangkan... membahagiakan bukan, memiliki kekuatan super, pacar yang keren dan amat mencintai kita, seperti hidup tanpa kesedihan. Itulah dunia yang selalu aku impikan, dunia tanpa kesedihan... karena yang sesungguhnya aku rasakan tak seperti itu, aku tak pernah bertemu dengan pangeran impianku, sahabat-sahabatku melupakanku, mereka tak pernah ada ketika aku membutuhkan seseorang disampingku, mereka mengabaikanku dan terus menyakiti hatiku... dan setiap saat aku selalu berharap agar aku segera bertemu dengan pangeran impianku... rogenku tersayang...belahan jiwaku... tapi pada kenyataannya "nggak"... menyebalkan sekali, maka dari itu aku selalu bermimpi tentang dunia tanpa cela, yang penuh dengan kebahagiaan dan jauh dari kesedihan, walaupun aku tahu dunia seperti itu tak pernah ada... mungkin hanya di wonderland (ehehe) yaaah ini sekedar mimpi untuk menghibur diriku yang selalu melewati hari-hari membosankan... dan aku berharap semoga aku segera bertemu dengan pangeran impianku.... chuu.... salam manis dari charolyne ~~