LOOSER

hi everyone! I wanna tell u guys, I'm really disappointed with my self. it's about UKSA, finally I give up on it in the 'pra LPT' stage, that's right they said they are worried if my ill come when we r in sea, and it is true that my ability is not enough to take to the sea, but that doesn't mean that I have to give up!! I hate this side of mine, this is show me that I'm such a big looser, I wanna as strong as them who can continue their struggle and in the end they can smile proudly with victory in their hand. I want to join them, but I don't have strong heart like them, I'm too spoiled and absolutely I was disappointed those who have believed in me and keep supporting me. I don't want to be hated by them, but I don't have any idea 'bout this. I was too easy to give up.  => sweet greeting from charolyne.